Loss of Acquisition.
A Facebook friend of mine messaged me about my recreational language studies, asking what I was presently working on. I told her that I recently finished my first Japanese course but was currently going through a course review, because at some point I “lost my acquisition”.
What I mean by that is, it got to a point where the learning material not only stopped making sense, but I stopped remembering it altogether. There had gotten to be so much information to process, and so much material to soak in, that it completely stopped processing. (Like if a restaurant had to stop taking orders due to being overwhelmed, and any orders that were forced through were just thrown out or lost altogether). So I’m reviewing the material, one piece at a time, in an effort to recover and maintain acquisition.
To get to the point: As I am trying to verbalize this experience to someone else for the first time, a question is raised: Is this what happens to the people who feel like they can’t learn music(or anything else)? Is this what happens to the people who feel like they have no talent or skill? They either had no acquisition, or lost their acquisition at some point? They never felt a sense of improvement or progress? I’ve talked to musicians and non-musicians alike who have told me everything from,
“I couldn’t figure it out at all…”,
“I figured it out, but I was really bad at it…”,
“I’m good at it, but it never made sense to me…” …
…And it appears that there are links and barriers between understanding and execution. Now I’m presented with those questions from higher up.
For myself, I can’t say that I’ve ever had issues with acquisition when it came to music. Even when dealing with music above my level, like with Etude Op. 10 No. 5 that I’ve mentioned before; Or with the flexibility and mobility issues I’ve been sorting out with fiddle these last several months; Yea, my technical ability lacked, but I still understood the music just fine. Even with the language barrier of not being able to recognize certain sounds or harmonies by ear, and not having the faculties to accurately interpret what was happening on my own; I still had access to the resources that could unlock that information. It’s never “not made sense”, especially not to the point where I felt like I was “locked out” of improvement. If that is how it is for some people, then I have a much healthier respect for those that have decided that certain things, especially music, just isn’t for them. However, this does challenge my philosophy that “Anyone can improve anything with deliberate, directed practice.”.