So I did my first performance in three years, in front of a live audience. The stage fright killed me. I never remember this happening before. Previously in my performances I remember enjoying them, and how peforming somehow pushed me to my limit and I did my very best. In this performance, where I was accompaning on fiddle for one of my friends while she clogged, I litereally disconnected myself from my playing. My fingers got numb and I could barely move them. My dynamics went to #$@! and I rushed like crazy. I also had no facial expression. Actually I had expression, but I looked like someone had died. I dont understand. I used to enjoy playing in front of a crowd so much, now its the last thing I want to do, and I feel crazy for ever thinking it was fun. I honestly just want to stay at home and play for my own enjoyment, and never venture into the performing world. Can anyone explain this transformation or wether I should do something about it. Or does anyone have any stories about there performing experiences.